Forgiveness is a gift

So not sure what to call this but I guess I'll end up talking about my trip to Hiroshima. (this will be shorten to a learning expirence)
So my trip to Hiroshima was interesting, definently a trip I won't forget.  Hiroshima is one of those places you always here about and want to go but not sure how you would handle the weight of being there.  Hiroshima is an amazing place, I traveled to the Floating shrine that you see in almost all the photos of Japan.   I also visited the Hiroshima A-Bomb site, museum, and more.  The first day which is when we visited the "floating shrine" was a ton of fun, a dream come true to be able to go there.  The second day was super difficult becuase the group we went with which included both, Osaka exchange students and Kobe exchange students, there happened to be a lot of exchange students from America.  We all felt a heavy burden and just overall overcast of our emotions going to the Atom bomb site, we all had tears in our eyes by the time we learned more about the site and all of the people who were killed.  I had a hard time, because in a way I felt wrong being there, I felt like I had directly placed the bomb.  When I got home and told my host family about these feelings they soon explained to me, that the many Japanese do not habor feelings against us, they said they have forgiven us for that, and just the emotion that over came me from that, the feeling of understanding why I am here in Japan to spread world peace, it was just incredible!

Forgetting

Today is Tuesday.  This week is my last "school week" in KobeYamate. Today I had my last Japanese class with みやけ先生.  Right now I want to cry.  It's almost over. This year, I've dreamed about all my life, is slowly coming to an end.  I've made incredible friends, and met so many people that I will never forget. I've had experiences, that will never live up to anything else in my life, and I know that I will slowly forget them all, all the fantasies about this year, the disappointment, the happiness, the sadness,the excitedness.  Everything, all those feelings, I soon will forget.  There is just one problem, I don't want to forget, I don't want to say good-bye, I don't want to hug my last hugs, I don't want to forget those moments.  Forget the moments when I had random people talk to me because I was foreign, falling asleep in class, being the 3rd fastest runner for a certain run, traveling all over Japan, the excitement, the moment of not knowing whats ahead but still accepting the future, the feeling of losing everything you had in your hands, the warm kiss of a stranger, making bad choices and learning from them.  All of those are special to me in some way, with some event in my exchange.  All of those feelings I will soon forget, I don't want to forget them, not at all,  I'm not read.  I wish they could last just a little bit longer.  The future is so unset for me that it is kind of scary, whether I'll still have feelings for certain people, friends,If I'll go to college, WHEN I'll go to college, What will I major in, Where I'll live, What I'll do, Who I'll marry, all of those questions all the way until, "When will I die?". All of these can change with one choice, starting right now.